It is a heart breaking to know the truth..

Today i just found out that 'he' that I love so dearly is a divorcee and have 1 child with his ex-wife. I was devastated because he didn't tell me the truth about who is he. I mean if he would just tell me that he was married once, i will be able to accept it. Who doesn't have dark past rite? But, when I threw that question to him before...he just told me that he never married before. Why he has to lied about it?

The worse thing is that I found out because I spoke to one of my colleague about my relationship with him and she just said, 'I thought he is a divorcee and have a daughter?'. I'm totally stunned and shock. We've been together for a great-3-months and what would my colleagues think of me? We are in the same office and have been seen together for a quite sometimes.

Maybe for other people, divorcee is fine. But, what if he is still married? What that makes me become? I am totally devastated and sad. I wish he could just being truthful to me at the first place.

We have fallen so deep in love with each other even though in these 3 months. Right now I don't know what to say to him..I feel cheated by the one i love so much.

Why he has to do this to me? Why now only the truth was revealed?

Deception Point

Have you all read Deception Point by Dan Brown yet? Based on the title, everyone would have guess it's all about deception, lies and betrayal right? But, the question now is WHO? Haha... I will not spoil the fun by telling you guys now. I suggest you read this book ASAP. You will not regret! Believe me!

When i starting to read this book, I knew I am putting myself into trap. It just got interesting and more interesting each chapters. I was reading it in the train, in the office, at home, while waiting for dinner...my mind just focusing only one thing : who is the controller? Why need to kill in order to get the information across? Why this ? Why that?

This is madness!! Dan Brown is an AWESOME-to-the-POSSOM writer!

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Plot Summary

Intelligence Analyst Rachel Sexton is in her mid-thirties, is single, and works for the NRO (National Reconnaissance Office). Her father, Senator Sedgewick Sexton, is a popular presidential candidate surpassing the incumbent President of the United States Zachary Herney.

The President sends her to the Arctic as part of a team of experts to confirm and authenticate findings made by NASA deep within the Milne Ice Shelf. NASA's new Earth Observation System (EOS,) a collection of satellites constantly monitoring the globe for signs of large-scale change, has found an extremely dense spot in the Milne Ice Shelf. NASA discovers a very dense meteorite.

In it are fossils of bugs very similar to--but not the same as--species on earth. NASA claims this as proof of extraterrestrial life. This find is something NASA needs desperately, as the agency’s success rate on other fronts has put it in a bad light. Senator Sexton uses this as an example of government overspending and failure to further his campaign. Meanwhile, a Delta Force team is observing the discovery, monitoring the NASA staff for an unknown commander.

When one of the four civilian scientists observes an irregularity with the pit the meterorite was found in, the Delta Force team 'takes him out' using their miniature spy bot, leaving his body in the pit far below the water where he will not be discovered. When another civilian scientist sees the irregularity, he shares it with his friends Corky and Rachel.

They report it to Norah, who confirms that there is sea water in what should be a closed area with only freshwater. The four go outside to scan the ice from a distance. The scan shows Ming's body and a frozen section of ice where the meteorite was drilled up into the shaft, and sea water sealed the gap. Upon discovering this, the four are attacked by the Delta Force team.

Norah is killed, shown as an accident. Rachel, Mike and Corky escape and are picked up by the Navy submarine USS Charlotte. The Delta Force team believes them to be dead, leaving them a chance to tell the President's advisor and Rachel's boss at the NRO about their discovery, Ming and Norah's deaths and about the attempt on their lives.

Rachel's boss, William Pickering, has them airlifted from the sub to a chopper which escorts them away from the meteorite discovery site.

A group of four civilian scientists have already been studying the find and have confirmed NASA's claims. It is only hours before the President and NASA plan to go public with the discovery.

taken from Wikipedia.org

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P.S. I Love You

I love this book sooooo much, it just drive me crazy. It's full of humour and heart breaking moments which just sank into you for a while. I thought it was just a normal love story that where you know what to expect by then end of the storyline. But, this book is worthwhile to buy and kept for a long long time.

Book Description

′Remember wonderful memories‚ but don′t be afraid to make some more.′

Holly and Gerry had the perfect life. Happily married‚ living in Dublin close to their friends and family‚ and with a brilliant social life‚ they had the world at their feet. Or so they thought.

When Gerry dies‚ Holly is devastated. On the eve of her 30th birthday‚ the man who was her lover‚ her best friend‚ her rock‚ has left her. But Gerry promised he′d always be there for Holly.

And he is: his last bequest to her is The List‚ a bundle of notes which form a monthly mission for Holly to get her life back on track.

As the notes are gradually opened‚ and as the year unfolds‚ Holly is both cheered up and challenged. The man who knows Holly better than anyone sets out to teach her that life goes on.

With some help from her friends‚ and her noisy and loving family‚ Holly finds herself laughing‚ crying‚ singing‚ dancing − and being braver than ever before.

Life is for living‚ she realises − but it always helps if there′s an angel watching over you.

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Why Man Love Bitches?

I'm very sinful in comprising and abandoning my blog! Oh....dear bloggie...please forgive me :(

2008 has been a year that full of thorns but yet rosey! Why I say that? Well, through every hard time that we went through, there is always positive things that we can learn from there. I can't described how "resentful" I was last year that I can't write a single post until today. You can mock me or praise me, but nothing can be better than what had happened.

I had three painful "break up" in a year! It's not that I want to be a "play girl" but being too nice can destroy a relationship. Guys like nice girl but what they truly want is the "dream girl". A girl with her own principal, love herself, love her life and have her own vision. This "dream girl" knows how to be a BITCH (Be In Total Control of Herself) when it comes to man that are chasing after her.

Ladies, don't ever dumped your commitment, friends, things that you love to do, your life for the man that you like (or should I say love?). If ever in a minute you act as his "slave", you are bringing the relationship into disaster! Let me ask these few questions:-

1. Did u ever try to please him by do his laundry or house chores?
2. Gets up early in the morning just to give him a wake up call?
3. Say "yes" to everything he says?
4. Cancel your appointment when he asked you out?
5. Waiting every second every minute for his calls?
6. Willing to drive late at nite to see him when he ask you to come over to his place?
7. Willing to comprise your own principal?
8. Giving him the "full-access" in your life?

If you say "yes", to all these questions...then you are really close to make him turns off over you!

Man is a hunter whether he is nice, naive or gentleman. Man is a man! You can change what God has made them to be. Do you ever wonder why man willing to go through all the pain when it comes to hunting? They willing to eat and sleep in the wood...for days or weeks..to hunt for the moos. Once they got their prey, they celebrate as if they are the king of the world! But imagine if you dropped a "dead moose" at their doorstep? They will have no interest to it and throw them away! "Dead moose" is a turn off!!

I may sound a bit idiotic and harsh, but this is the truth. I am writing this post wishing someone realize that they need to love themselves first, then only others can love them too. I am speaking out of experience and I hope this post will help someone out there. It takes me so much of pain before I ever realized this...

When you acted like a prize, you will turn him into a believer! - Why Men Love Bitches? by Sherry Argov

Times Square Shopping

One of the greatest thing that a women can have to boost themselves is their handbags! You can have great clothes, shoes, dresses or what so ever but nothing is greater than matching them with a beautiful handbag! Correct or not?

Last sunday I went down to KL to meet my eldest sister, Cecilia at Times Square. She came down just to do her training in Cyberjaya. Our plans was just to hang out and shopping! It feels so good after nearly a few months since I last saw her. Love my sis!

Her flight was delayed that day and I have to wait at KL Central nearly one and half hours in a coffee shop! I was trying to kill my time reading some of the tear newspapers that my friend had passed to me to read. I do realized how important it is to read and be knowledgeable...hehe..

Finally, she came at 3.45pm at KL Central before we left to Times Square to have dinelunch (lunch/early dinner). We quickly hunt a place to eat once we step our foot at the shopping mall and stop at Station Kopitiam to had something. hehe.
We had so much great time chatting and catch up with the latest news.

After that, we went ahead with our most important plan....SHOPPING!

hahaha........

While busy looking around the shops...suddenly, my sight was caught by this "babe". I quickly ran towards this babe and I fall in love with her from the first sight. She was pinkish, sexy and elegant. I know in my heart that I need to have this babe. haha...don't worry, she is not a girl/lady/woman but my new darling....a stunning pink handbag!

I love her color...PINK!

I quickly grab the handbag and try it out. It super nice and suit for all occasions! Plus, it was 70% off!! Can you believe it?! If I don't grab it now, I'm going to regret for the rest of my life...hahaha..

Anyhow, I bought it that day and it makes my day. haha...so happy! I suggest those who wants to shop, better they do it now or else the price going to be expensive after the grand sales.

After that, we went shopping for other things and gone back at 730pm before we both took different trains to our own destination. I gave my sis a hug and head towards home because it was a tiring day for both of us but it's worthwhile after all.

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My blog damn bored liao!!

My goodness! My blog is damn bored...I need to change it! I need to make it interesting...change the look..more interesting stories...no more lengthy sentence...more pictures! I need to make it as interesting as life can be..

New resolution:

Reengineer. Evolution. Innovative.

Updates!

Argh!!! I don't know what to update! Seriously, I'm just too lazy to stroke the keys and type something. Duh! =.=''''' Anyway, i'm glad my sis is around to accompany me these few days. I wish I had more time with her. Today she going back to Kuching at 1830pm flight from KLIA. I'm gonna miss her badly after this. Try to spend time with her but she don't even want to go out from the house for a drink! Is it I'm too sensitive or she just love to lepaking at home. Anyway, we both have different personality and thinking wise. She is more inwards and wants to spend her time reading bible, pray and watch Youtube (like nearly everytime she's at home =.='') while I'm a kind of person who loves outdoor and go out to explore the world! Haha! She loves to talk about our cats (Lor, Kaka and Tigar)and my mum dearest friend back in Kuching, Jolly's family, Renold etc. She loves KimHanuel! She can watch the actress' video clip in Youtube the whole day eventhough the whole clips is in Korean T_T

But, regardless how much different we both can be, I still loves her as who she is because that's what makes her so special in the eyes of God and us in the family. But, what motivates me most is looking forward to see my family come for my graduation in May 2008!

Yea babe...I like to move it, move it! I like to move it, move it!

Okla, I got to go for a drink with my sis...at last, she agreed! muahahahha!!

D.I.E (Do It Everyday) GY Camp 2007!

Wow..that's wat i can say. I really thanked God i made it at last. I completed the task that has been assigned to me. I was assigned to do the tuck shop this year camp which i just gave a new name called "Heaven-11". Hehe..the idea comes from Egbert. But, also God was preparing me to do something else, which is to minister to someone in the camp.

I was very stressed out at the beginning because i need to earn RM2600++ in order to get a 100% profit within 4 DAYS!!! How on earth can i do tat? But God is great! He showed me nothing is impossible when i'm willing to obey Him. I just surrender Heaven-11 to God and He has never failed to surprise me in His amazing ways. All i can say is, we managed to collect 150% profit in the end. God is good huh!

I managed to minister to a girl in my group where within such a short time, God has lead me to her. We chat till 330am in the morning but I thanked God for her. When i talked to her at that time, I feel like looking at myself 7 years ago. I can feel what she feels, and understand what bothers her so much. I believe through what I have gone through God has a purpose for it.

During the camp, I get to closer to Young Adult group from PJ and Klang. They are such a wonderful and genuine people. I realized how much I missed all the fun of working together and not being judgmental of each other but rather accepting each other as who they are. They are crazy yet wonderful people to be with.

No regrets for coming to this CAMP!

*I'll post the pictures soon once i got it from Sarah Lim. hehe...

KisS Me UndeR The MistleToe

Hari Raya Celebration in Seremban ^^

I had the nicest and worthwhile of Hari Raya Celebration this year. Me and Shannon was invited to join the Transitors and LIFE group to stay overnite in Seremban. I wanted to come on saturday but I was too exhausted and so is Shannon.

So, we decided to leave early Sunday morning with Sean J. and drive down to attend the church service. We left around 8.30am and reach there about 9.20am. We were suppose to go straight to the church to meet up with the rest but our stomach was growling and playing "nicest" music on earth. =.=

Shannon and me had "lo mai kai" and dim sum ^^. It was very tasty and delicate. Sean had his 20-minutes-long-waiting Beef Noodles. Kesian him...

Then, we quickly rush to church and realizing that we missed the worship session. Arghh!

I was listening to the pastor preaching and it really speaks about my current life. I was touched and truly blessed by his preaching. I went to the alter call and I told God, "take my will..my heart...my life. Used it for Your glory." I cried in my heart not because I'm sad but because I knew God is there with me.

After that, I return to my seat. Hosana gave me a hug...Lydia gave me a hug...Shannon too and the last person gave me a hug was Aunty lilian. It was really a relieve and encouraging me. I nearly broke to tears but holding it back because paiseh ^^

Then, we went to have lunch at Johnny's and bowling! haha. I played terribly that day. My highest score was only 68!!!! Argh! I'm happy for Shannon because she was improving and so was the rest. We had fun and a good laugh looking at each other's action.

Then, we went back to the house to prepare BBQ. I was helping Jianz and aunty in the kitchen while the rest was helping to prepare the ingredients and etc. We sang songs and give thanks to God before we start. Eunice and aunty lilian was the chef of the day! They are the ones that barbeque the chicken, squid, potatoes etc so well and delicious.

We played the "Tai Chi" games. Everyone was tested whether how long they can hold that "tai chi" position. The highest score falls to Grace. haha..150 seconds. After that, legs cramps. -.-

Unfortunately, something happen to me. While walking to wash my hands, i felt an urge pain on my left foot. I thought it was nothing but suddenly it hurts. So, i went to check and i saw a small spot blue black appears. Quickly they inform aunty and she kept looking at it. Trying to squeeze it but no holes was to be found because they taught something might has sting me. It was really painful because i can feel my nerve was like having contraction. Then, after a while aunty told me..." I think your nerve just snapped."

I was stunned.....What???!! My nerve just snapped?? I panicked for a while but she told me, she got it once. No worries, it will recover itself after a week. Never in my life i heard such a thing and kept wondering how it happens. She advised me to put ice bag to reduce the pain and slowly it went off. I was forbidden from wearing heels and ensure i don't put too much pressure on my left foot. i followed the instruction until the 2nd day...i danced. :P

I, Sean, Hosana and Shannon went back that nite at 1am and reached Subang at 2.30am in the morning. It was a worthwhile to spend time there and it was really fun.

Here, are some of the pictures we took:-










More pictures are coming up ^^ ...just be patient k.

At last....Mission Accomplished!

Well, for some of you might be wondering what am i talking about. hehe...mo sam kap..man man lae...

Haha! Recently I started to learn to speak cantonese. It's really hard because you have to speak the right tune and its nearly the same as mandarin. =.= *stunt*

Anyway, back to what am i about to say....

For the past 2 weeks, I had sleepless nite because of my final year project. I have to blame myself for this cos if I didn't procrastinate earlier, I wouldn't facing all the problems. Earlier, I was given the opportunity to do HR staff recruitment system for Sunway Uni HR department. So, I have been designing and proposed to them a new system called Enterprise Resource Planning (ERP). Hehe. Sound very pro rite? Of course, only those who are in "professionals" profession are qualified.

haha... sorry ler, got to tell the truth :P

Back to the story. So, I was burning midnite oil for the past few weeks cos rushing to finish my system as well as my documentation. I was sleeping less than 5 hours for the past 48 hours. It stress me out to the extent that I can't sleep but just facing my computer 24/7.

Last sunday I continue my documentation from 3pm to 11am the next day. I really gave all my mind, strength and focus onto it. In doing documentation, I totally rigid. Ensuring everything is perfect and well done.

Some of my friends love me as a good friend but hate me as a group leader. =.=

They say i demand too much and hate to ignore every single details. haha.. i guess that who i am when i'm really serious in doing something. I hate people to interfere with my work and must give what i want. I want the info to be what i expected without just taking it from internet or other source but does not contribute anything to our project.

Thank God this project is individual project. At least I still l can target high marks without stressing out anybody. =)

On monday morning, I sent it straight for binding. I asked the "ah sok" (uncle ^^) whether can bind by that day itself or not. He say can...but pay RM100. What??????!!!!! RM100 for one book???

I nearly fainted there but i kept cool. So expensive and not reasonable at all!!! I was about to scold that uncle but then I realized I better keep myself cool down cos i don't know whether can find else where to bind the documents. So, i said what if tomorrow. Then, he said, "Oh...that one need to pay RM80 per book." Wah lau eh...too much alredy!!! Then, continue he said, "If you can wait til 3rd day, then only RM30 per book." I tried to call my supervisor about it but he never picked up. -.-

Anyway, I got no other choice but to pick the last resort...wait for till wednesday. So, today later at 9am, im gonna go to SS15 to pick up my books and submit to my lecturer. I hope things will go well and I'm so happy to end my battle!

Then, I shall declare today as MISSION ACCOMPLISHED! WHoooohooooo....

After that, we gonna have farewell lunch with two of my classmates. They are going back to China for good. I guess it's hard for them to find a good job here because not many company willing to hire them because the company have to pay visa for them and for sure all sorts of immigration problems will arise. I just wanna wish that they will be successful in what ever they gonna do in the future. ^^

So many things running through my head now. What is my next target? Where am i gonna work? Will i ever get a good job with a well paid job? Shall i get a part-time job or pick up new skills?

I know i have a bright future ahead of me and I believe so not because of self-confidence, but I know God has a wonderful plan for me. I'm excited but yet nervous to know what is ahead of me. All I can do is to trust Him and make things around me better! =)

But for these few days, I'm gonna declare it's FIESTA TIME!!! Hahaha....

The list of "What am i gonna do"::

1. I shall learn to improve my dance
   
2. I shall yam cha most of the nitez
3. I want to find part-time job
4. I want to check out New pyramid!
5. I want to learn piano.
6. I want to learn cantonese.
7. I want to club with my frens.
8. I want to learn to swim ^^
9. I want to go Genting
10. I want to shop
11. I want to help aunty with new projects
12. I want to learn new songs
13. I want to improve my guitar skill
14. I want to play badminton
15. I want to hang out with all my frens
16. I want to go to Malacca for satay celup & portugues tart
    
17. I want to go to Seremban for "tong sui"
18. I want to go to 1U to find a nice purse
19. I want to make my life more meaningful from now onwards
20. I want to make use what i have to help those who don't have it

This is my vision for now... i hope i can achieve each of them and never regrets doing it. ^^

My new Motto: I'll make sure i don't waste my time dreaming about it but achieving it.

Too Many Boyfriend?

Can I say that having too many boyfriend is adventurous thing to do? Hmm..well, for me was a cool thing to do. I got all the focus and attention that I wanted but yet I always ended up wanted to add the list. Haha...I didn't realized at that time I was playing with fire.

When I was holding on to a-year-relationship with my first bf was really tough and caused my emotion to fluctuate up and down easily. He was busy with his work since this year as he was promoted as Regional Manager in his company. So, I decided to add the total of my friends so that I wouldn't get too lonely anymore. I met many new friends and eventually I became very busy and had tight schedule of plans with all the friends that I met for the past two years.

One day, I started to meet with this new guy friend named Alex that I just added in my list and we met a couples of time after that. Suddenly, he was sharing with me about how many gfs he had before. Then, I became closed to him and a month after that we became a couple.

At that time, I thought i have made my happiness and I will no longer be alone like before. But, eventually Alex become very busy with his work as well. Then a week later, my another friend that I have known since last year asked me whether I'm willing to be his gf eventhough he don't mind to share with other guys.

That was my third bf for that particular time... =.=''''

I was thinking to myself, " Hey, this is too wonderful to be true because I'm gonna enjoy all the attention and love that I can get from all my three boyfriends. I was happy and I didn't know that it was temporary happiness that soon gonna be faded.

As all my three bfs was too busy to spend time with me, I feel unsatisfied and was planning to get another one more boyfriend. I have chat with this friend for a few months and he has a gf in Australia. We started to share about our unhappiness and frustration towards our relationships.

Then one day, he asked me whether I can be his gf just for a week. In my mind was saying, "Wow! Good deal. As long we both do not fall in love with each other, its a deal." He made this agreement because his gf from Australia was suppose to come down to Malaysia to meet him for the first time. He got frustrated when his gf have to cancel the flight from Aus - Mas at last minute because of emergency matters.

We went for bowling, lunch, dinner and swimming. It was great and wonderful time with him as he is a gentleman and has some good characters. We joked, we laugh and teased a lot each other eventhough in what ever situation. We were like a young couple that just started to date and fall in love of each other. We will smses each other daily and it creates a good feeling.

Today was suppose to be our last week of being bf-gf. We were reluctant but then we really cherished the time that we spent together.

Now, it's hard to let go because of all my boyfriends has their owns attraction and charms. Haiz, I wish never started it but God is teaching me a lesson.

Eventhough how many boyfriends I have, I will not satisfy with all of them. It is because I was too caught up to bring all the attention and focus unto me until I have forgotten what my vision is. I was self-centered and stubborn but yet God is gracious in all His ways.

God is teaching me to let Him fill me with His love and grace. Only His unconditional love can satisfy the hollow that's been in my heart all these while. Now i know God is the only Person in the whole earth that satisfy and meet my needs according to His richness and glory.

The Perfect Pitch I've Ever Heard!

After I watched this video, I realized how our Wonderful God created us and each of us has special talents and gifts. In Psalm 139 says, He has fearfully and wonderfully made us.

Imagine how God created us individually yet has BIG PLANS and PURPOSES for each of us. There are billions of human being that are alive on this earth yet they are individually love and care by our Lord Jesus. Enjoy this video!!

What is your score?

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Casting Crown - The Altar and The Door Sneak

Hey...check this out! It's an awesome album!
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Project are due sooon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm gonna be dead in a week's time. I only managed to finished 20% of my project. I can't imagine what will happen next two weeks. Haiz....i wish God just make the college will change the date of submission which is less than two weeks from now.

Oh my goodness!

I can only believe in the impossible things to happen although how impossible it sounds!

Well, we will see what will happen in two weeks. .

Please pray for me..... T_T

Goodbye To You, My Good Friend

Friend comes and go but life have to go on...

It was great to know you since that year 2005. When we first met, you were quiet while i was the one who made the conversation. You were just smiling throughout the meeting while listening to my stories.

Well, at first I thought.."Such uninteresting friend...huh..". But, as the longer I got to know you, you were the greatest friend that i ever had. We hang out a lot and I don't think anybody can replace your place. You were funny, crazy and had the greatest idea to do things. But, you were a good listener too. You were there when I need help and nevertheless, the one who always at my side when I'm sad.

Well, there goes the old times but I will always cherish and reminisce our friendship and the time that we had spent together. It was great...it was wonderful.

But now, you are no longer around to play with me....
Hang out with me....
Shopping together with me....
Dine with me. Lunch with me....
Breakfast with me....

It's saddening me when our friendship just vanished to thin air...without much notice or warning. I guess life just has to go on..even without you at my side. I remember once you said to me.." Sharon, you will always be my darling whatever happens and I will always at your side when you need me.

Thank you for being such a wonderful buddy to me....

Goodbye to you my wonderful and awesome friend....

My beautiful cats....... ^_^

Tigar....
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from left: Kaka & Lor
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Kaka try to act cute....
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so adorable.....miss them ler...

Friendship Garden, Kuching

water fountain in middle of the lake

Sunset

Chinese restaurant that have the cheapest & nicest seafood ^_^

Tallapia fish in the lake

It was a windy evening.....
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Other snapshot with my sisters....
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I love my family!!